It’s very distressing. You don’t need to be brave with Me. I know you don’t want to think about it and would push it away if possible, but this one will not stay in the box.
This is the sort of troubling news it takes to dismay a courageous heart like yours.
I have watched you grow from a brave, generous child to a faithful, lifelong friend, a loving parent, a grandparent, and a trusted companion. I have been with you every day of your life; I know you completely. You are my delight. I am so proud of the person you have become.
You have always had a big heart for others in your family; your concern is as much for them as for yourself. I love that about you and know it is a burden you willingly carry. You don’t want them to think about managing life without you. You are their wise comforter. You are reassuring them, and yourself, that you’ve got this. Somehow, you will fight it.
My dear one, it is not right that you must fight this. Nothing you have done said, or thought has made you vulnerable. This is not justice, but don’t search for answers to the ‘why’ question now. And don’t worry. In the world, worry is a sign that you care. In the kingdom, worry is a sign that you do not know what to do.
Begin at the beginning. There is a place in My heart that is yours alone. It is a place of certainty, safety, and peace, where you belong, Beloved of My heart. I have missed you. Did you think you would have to achieve some standard of behaviour before you could experience My goodness? That is a lie from the enemy.
I have never left you. Return to me; I am the source of your life and the one who can make a way where there is no way. This is of utmost importance, and the decision, dear child, is yours.
Read Psalm 27. Make it your own. It is My gift to you.